Obey God!!

So I always talk about my parents. I never do it to be intentionally mean. I am beginning to realize that every time I repeat what they have done or said to me I am just strengthening the enemy. He is able to grow stronger because I am not obeying God. So he is gaining the victory. I am now understanding that if we are disobeying God then he will not step in and stop the consequences of our choices. I have been learning that if I just keep my mouth shut both with my parents and to others about my parents things work out. I never gossip about my parents what I say is true. I just shouldn't be saying it.I should be telling God what bothers me not others.He says to seek him first so when I am telling others I am putting them above him. If I put others above him and continue to doubt that he will com through I am being disobedient. I had a very wise person tell me tonight that I should see the things I want to change in the natural with my spirit. This is really hard to do, because I can't see it. It's proclaiming that without seeing it that it has happened. The funny thing is that can all be summed up in one word FAITH! 

Lord,
Please help me to realize that what I say gives strength either to your will in my life or to satan. Show me how to be victorious. How to handle everything the way Jesus would. I want to know how to give your will strength in my life not satans. Show me what your trying to teach me in this situation. I know you said nothing comes to your children without first passing through your hand. I know there is a reason help me to see it. Help me to learn the lesson I need to learn. I am tired of making the same mistakes over and over again. I want to move past this hurdle in the road. Thank You for Helping me!
                                                                             In Jesus Name
                                                                                               Amen

Growth!!

So it's amazing to me how much my life has changed in the last few years. I have gotten alot stronger. I am so happy that even in the times when I wanted to quit God wouldn't let me. I don't know where I would be if I had quit. Things are still not easy but, I know now that with God's help I can make it through anything. I started thinking about this because we are suppose to be writing our testimonies for this class at my church. It really made me stop and think about what exactly has happened in my life. How all of these things have changed me. I am so happy that I have grown. That I am not where I was four years ago.

I think we never really stop to think about how much we have grown. I wonder if we stopped focusing so much on how bad things are now and started looking at what they were before if we wouldn't find more strength. I know I have found alot more strength in looking at where I have come from. I mean when I went through some of the stuff in the past I never thought I would make it out. I was sure I would just give up or fail. So the fact that I can say I didn't give up or fail is really encouraging to me.  I look back and realize how much God helped me through. At the time I felt like he was angry with me and distant. Now I see things that I didn't notice back then. Times where things would just fall into place and I didn't understand how.

So my question to you is "What has God brought you through?After that do you still doubt he can bring you through your problems now?" I am sure God can bring me through. I might not like what the process is but, I know I will make it.

Psalms 28:7 The Lord is my strength and shield.
    I trust him with all my heart.
He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy.
    I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.

Which Way??!!??

So for the last few weeks I have been trying to figure out what the right thing to do about my parents is. I have asked just about everybody I can think of. The thing is I ask all of these people then I get so confused. I am so tired of being confused. So I have decided that God will tell me what the right thing to do is.
Proverbs 16:9 We can make our plans,
    but the Lord determines our steps.

I am trying to leave everything up to God. I don't know what to do but he does. He knows the beginning and the end. He knew how it ends before I was even born. I just have to remember that other people can tell you what God is saying but, you should ask him first.

Matthew 6:33  Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

The Right Timing!

So recently my life have pretty much been turned upside down. Aside from my home problems I have also been dealing with health problems. God has been showing me through this that I need to trust in him. I have always found it hard to not worry about things. I am realizing that I can't continue to worry. I do not have enough strength to continue to try to fix everything. I think it's funny how I am not only physically tired but, mentally as well.

I mentioned to a friend about possibly moving in a couple of months. She basically told me that she thinks I need to stay to be an example to my family. I just feel like in a way I am hindering them because, as long as I am here they will never realize how much they need Jesus. They will never have to face their loneliness. They can continue to pretend everything is okay.

I respect this friend very much and have given her argument a lot of thought. I still feel that her judgement is wrong in this situation. I mean when is it okay to say NO? The way she talks you should never say no to anyone. She told me about how she had help this same person in her life so many times. Over and Over the same results every time. Until God got so tired of it he took the person out of her life permanently.

I feel like God does not want us to let people abuse us. I know that sounds like a harsh word to use. However, whenever somebody intentionally continues to hurt you and then disappear. Only to return with the same argument the next time and hurt you once again. I feel like God has given us the ability to say no to the requests of those who continually abuse us.

This friend told me that God would reveal the right time for me to leave. The funny part is I feel like he is telling me it's now. I have done everything I can do for my family. I have tried my best to be an example to them now it's up to God to do the rest. I think they will respond better if they have no one to turn to but, Him. The way it is now I am sort of in his way. He can get them to respond but, they do not respond to him they respond to me. I am the hindrance in their life. They will never seek God and know how much they need him until He is all they have left.

Focus on What God says not What People say!!

So I talk a lot about my family. That is my biggest struggle right now. I feel like more times than not they talk really bad about me. I always have to remind myself that no matter what they say I need to remember what God says. Some of the things my parents have said about me would surprise you. I am not going to share them but, I will say that they are bad enough I would not say them to my worst enemy. 


The thing is as Christians we are not suppose to worry about what people think of us. We are to strive to please God and do his will. Nothing else should matter at all. We focus so much on the negative things people say it's no wonder why depression and anxiety are running rampant in our society. We get depressed about not being good enough then anxious about trying to be good enough. I think it's time we got an attitude adjustment. 


God never says in his word that if we fail math we are stupid. If we can't read then we are incompetent. We as a human race see each other that way. God sees someone he loves and will equip to do his will. He has a plan for everyone of us if we will follow it. My favorite verse is Jeremiah 29:11. I love it in the NKJV (New King James Version). It says (Jeremiah 29:11) For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.  


I like how it says "I know the thoughts I think toward you". God's thoughts are not our thoughts. He has a completely different view of  than us. If we thought even a fraction of what he thinks of us there would be no way to be depressed. So the next time I hear someone says something negative to me I am going to repeat Jeremiah 29:11 out loud if I have to. As many times as it take for me to realize that God sees me in a different way.  He loves me and has a plan for my life and yours too. 

God Always Answers!!

Okay so recently a lot of things have been going wrong. I have been having problem after problem. The funny thing is that I have been praying every night asking God to please tell me what to do to fix it. I have found in the past that he always answers in a way that is unexpected. I think he likes to keep me on my toes. So I talked to one of my friends today who told me about a dream she had. She said that she thought it had something to do with me. She told me to TRUST GOD! I was shocked, because she didn't even realize how much that related to what I am going through.

I am always amazed at the way God answers our prayers. He always find a new way to get our attention. I was expecting to all the sudden just know what to do. To have a solution that I could put into practice. A solution that would change the whole situation. God had a better idea. He decided to use a friend to get my attention. To get me to focus on what I should be focused on. To many times I focus on the problems when I should just LET GO AND LET GOD!


Lord,
Please help me to stop focusing on everything else and to just focus on you. Help me to trust you more and stop trying to fix everything myself. I can't do anything without you. I will trust you with everything that is going on. Your the only one that can fix it I can't. Thank you for telling me the answer that I already knew but, had forgotten.
                                      In Jesus Name,
                                                                Amen

Are You Listening?

Ever since I was really little I have always heard God speaking to me. I didn't always know it was him until after. I went through a time in my life when I felt like he wouldn't talk to me. I was so upset! I remember crying out to him in my prayers asking him to speak to me. I told him that if I could not hear him speaking to me then I didn't want to live anymore. I kept asking "Why won't you speak to me? Are you mad at me?" The question I should have been asking is "Am I really Listening?"


The reality is that he never left or stop speaking to me. I just wasn't listening as closely as I had in the past. I am reminded of the story of Elijah. 1 Kings 19:¹¹ God said, “Go out and stand in front of the Lord on the mountain.”

As the Lord was passing by, a fierce wind tore mountains and shattered rocks ahead of the Lord. But the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind came an earthquake. But the Lord wasn’t in the earthquake. ¹² After the earthquake there was a fire. But the Lord wasn't in the fire. And after the fire there was a quiet, whispering voice. ¹³ When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his coat, went out, and stood at the entrance of the cave.

Then the voice said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

You see God didn't come in the earthquake, wind or the fire. He came in the quite whisper. I think God tries to speak to us a lot more than we even realize. We are just to preoccupied by facebook, youtube, and our cell phones. We are so focused on these things that they drown out Gods voice. 

When was the last time you went for a walk just to enjoy God's creation? 

What about the last time you sat in complete silence before Him?

When was the last time you truly waited and expected to hear from Him?

I struggle with this all of the time. I am always so busy doing things. I never realized how much I drown Him out with a lot of the things I do. Last weekend I went on an encounter weekend. They did not allow us to have cellphones or anything electronic for that matter. They wanted us to focus on listening to hear what God wanted to tell us. If we listen he is faithful and will speak to us. He can speak to us through nature the sound of baby birds in spring. The wind blowing through the trees. The voice that whisper I love you in the quite just before you fall asleep. 

What is He saying to you today?